Greetings from the battlefront:
This month I want to share my experience not from “the field,” but from the heart of a missionary wife and mother. I share this with you not to evoke sympathy, but to remind you of the real battle for our souls that’s going on, and to share with you what God has revealed to me—my latest testimony, you might call it.
The last several weeks have been consumed with unpacking boxes, starting a new homeschool curriculum and routine, trying to restock furniture (like beds and a couch that we had left behind, having nowhere to keep them while we lived in a camper), and preparing for the arrival of our third baby. There has been at least a moment every day where I have felt overwhelmed by all of this. Add to this the everyday tasks of keeping a home and family, the all-too-often screaming tantrums of our beloved two-year-old, and some pregnancy hormones; it’s a recipe for impending disaster.
In all these challenges, I am somehow so vulnerable to the lies that the devil loves to throw at me: “You don’t have it; you’re not doing anything well; you’re ruining these kids; you should just quit trying,” and on and on he goes. I tend to believe him and lose sight of Who’s child I am. I’m trying to do it all on my own, and it’s just not working. I feel empty, and all the joy is sucked from my life.
The other day, God took me to Jeremiah 2:12-13, where He says,
“Be appalled, O heavens, at this; be shocked, be utterly desolate, declares the LORD, for my people have committed two evils: they have forsaken me, the fountain of living waters, and hewed out cisterns for themselves, broken cisterns that can hold no water.”
It hit me like a lead brick: I’ve hewed out my own cistern, and it’s not holding any water! I was, indeed, appalled. I couldn’t go on like this. I needed to go straight to the fountain of living waters and get all I need from Him. After tears of repentance and October 2016 relief, I got back on the track to trusting in Jesus for my all. He still has to remind me several times a day, but He’s teaching me to take everything to Him.
I’m not sure why it’s so hard for us to remain in Jesus only. Maybe I should only speak for myself, but I suspect I’m not the only one who struggles with this. Satan uses so many clever tricks to get us off track, to distract us, to pull us ever so gently off of Jesus that we don’t even realize what’s happening. We mustn’t let him do this! Jesus tells us to abide in Him (John 15:4 is one of the places He says this). So whether we’re struggling with raising kids, organizing our time, finances, or all of these and more, we must stick to His side, go to Him, pour out our hearts to Him, ask Him what to do, and trust Him. He won’t turn us away.
As we walk this journey with AWA, the Lord has been teaching us much, for which we are grateful, even though we tend to require lessons that aren’t so fun to go through. My prayer for you, as well as for us, is that as we move forward, God will continue to provide whatever it is that we need in order to do His will.
A short update on the happenings in the Nagy family:
Flight training at Thunderbird Adventist Academy has commenced, which means Nik is again keeping the plane maintained (under the open desert sky), and assisting with towing the plane back and forth to and from the airport. Pray that approval to erect the hangar here will come through soon. Nik has applied for U.S. citizenship. His $680 check was accepted, and he is now awaiting an interview and whatever else goes along with that process. Pray that it will go smoothly as his citizenship will make all things flight related less complicated in dealing with the Federal Aviation Administration (FAA).
On that note, Nik has an interview with the FAA the first week in October to get approval to take the test to attain his Inspection Authority. If approved, he has 30 days to take and pass the test, which requires much study and memorization on his part. The test will cost $150 if you’d like to support this step so that he can be even more efficient in his work for AWA. Also, pray that he will have a clear mind to study and retain the information.
We are awaiting the arrival of our third child, due the first part of November. All seems to be well thus far, and we solicit your prayers for a healthy labor and delivery of a healthy child.
We can’t thank you enough for your prayer and financial partnership in this mission. God bless you, Nik, Lynette, Devyn, and Simon Nagy